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I just put IBS because that’s what I think I have, i’m not actually sure what I have at the moment. I am a 19 year old girl, I’ve had diarrhea daily, sometimes multiple times in a day, for about 2 months straight, everyday. At first, for about a year or so, I had stomach issues, where i’d get gas regularly, I had bowel issues, my stomach would rumble loudly when I held gas in, and holding gas in made me feel relly really bad ill bad horrible. I’d get lots of headaches, tiredness, feeling weak, down, dehydrated, hungry, lots of stomach pains.

More recently, for about a month I had on and off diarrhea, at first I had a bad reaction to Vitamin tablets, because i’m a very fussy eater, I decided to take vitamins and had a bad bad bad reaction for about 5 days. But then the diarrhea came back on and off for I don’t know what reason, but for the past 2 months its just been completly on and its horrible. It literally takes over my life, I felt terrible after a bit of weetabix this morning, I couldn’t even eat it all because eating it was making me feel sick, I felt horrible for the whole of my lecture like so ill but I really don’t want this to take over my life because I don’t want to be missing uni because of this.

For years, when I was younger, I consumed a lot of caffeine from when I was 14 till about 3 or 4 months ago, I guess you could say its weird but I had a weird addiction to Diet Coke where it got to the point where i’d get stressed out and search for money if I couldn’t afford to buy it, and I kept them in my room consuming between 8 and 12 cans of Diet Coke a day, weird, I know, but I originally thought for the past year that’s what was causing all of my symtoms and if I just stopped I would feel better again, but no, i’ve got much worse, I stopped drinking excessively about 3 or 4 months ago, and obviously i’m still very ill, more ill in fact, i’m aware that could still be a cause, but I also tried to improve my diet as I am such a fussy eater, i’ve tried cutting down on caffeine and drinking more water but i’m sill so ill.

I went to see the doctor for the first time around 6 or 7 weeks ago, i’ve had blood tests they took a stool sample everything came back normal a part from my white blood cells being low, I now have to have retest for my blood tests and do the stool sample again, its been so long and I just want to find out what’s wrong with me so bad! I’ve been on the imodium recently for a few weeks on and off, the doctor said to take two a day, it slowed things down for me slightly but even the second or third day of taking them I felt bad again. I’ve stopped taking them now cos I ran out and don’t want to waste my money, and i’ve felt horrible these past few days.

Food just goes straight through me, I eat a meal and my stomach feels bad immediatly, its horrible, especially when I have a life i’d like to be living, because food doesn’t stay inside me it makes me so hungry, like really hungry, but I never over-eat because I get hungry so often, I have lost weight over the past year/year and a half or so without trying, I also get tired and dehydrated because nothing stays inside my body. I have had blood in my stool just twice. I think I have IBS, probably caused by too much caffeine, but I do have the symtoms for everything else which is similar symtoms, but i’m pretty sure I don’t have them, I would however prefer to be gluten free because as annoying as that seems at least its easy to manage my symtoms because i’m so young I really don’t want to be ill forever! I tried to check myself to see if I was lactose intollerant, and I felt ill so don’t think I am. I’m probably gonna test for gluten free next because the doctors are taking forever and i’m sick and tired of waiting to know what’s wrong, and the thought of having this forever makes me really sad and annoyed. It just leads to a really awkward life, especially when I didn’t tell people for so long because I was embarressed. I don’t want to take time off uni or work or a social life because i’m feeling ill or because I have a doctors appointment its just really unfair, and i’m feeling really really ill right now. I just live on the internet googling stuff because I don’t know what’s wrong with me yet, and I felt like I had to let it all out because as understanding as everyone in my life tries to be, they don’t really understand. 

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